It’s that time again.
My parents arguing all the time over nothing but my grades at school, like the grades define who I truly am. My parents want me to become a doctor when truthfully I just want to write music. But no. I have to get an actual job.
So my grades have to be top notch otherwise I’m going to get nowhere in life. That I’m a failure for even wanting to be a musician. I can’t fight who I want to be, who I was born to be. It’s always about money and having a career to be proud of. So why can’t I be proud to be a musician? My parents always reply with the same answer. “It’s not about being happy. It’s about doing what’s right for you and your family. That is the most important thing and you should be grateful for what you have.” So as long as I live a life of depression doing a job I hate with a decent wage coming through after wasting years of studying at university, that is a life well lived.
I’ve seen that life from my parents and I don’t want that. I want to impact the world and live a life of happiness and passion. Either way, I feel like I’m a failure no matter what I choose. Do I have the drive to break the chain and fight for my dream? Honestly, I hope so.
Love from my past self.